Tonight’s feeling: I miss chilling(and drinking) with my friends :(

I don’t understand how you could do such things. You were a good friend in the past who knew so many things about me; my likes and dislikes and my agony. Now we’ve drifted apart and you’re adding on to my agony which you clearly knew about. I wished I had the guts to talk to you about it. To ask if you’ve forgotten all the things we talked about when I stayed over at your place, I want to know. God, help me to forgive her.

Today started out really bad for me. I had to constantly remind myself to not think about things. I guess it works for awhile.. Until later on in the night. I cried my heart out in bed like a crybaby I always am. Sigh. Really could not stand crying under my blanket, so best friend came to meet me under my blk. It was such a big relief for me to be able to pour my heart out and get such simple understanding, care and concern from a friend. I am grateful and so thankful for what I heard at the end of a supposedly bad day. It is saved :)

But there is still tomorrow, the day after next, next 2 days, next 3 days… I don’t know when I’ll be okay again, all I know is that it’s gonna be a long, long journey.

Dear God, you know our hearts and I pray you keep us together till the end.